Greetings from Vermont!
I just wanted to first thank you for everything you’ve done for me. You have changed my life and opened me up physically and spiritually in ways I didn’t know were possible before doing this practice. I see now how deeply and profoundly growing up with chronic hip pain has affected the way I move through the world and the fear I carried even after the pain became less regular, always frightened for when it would return (which it always did eventually).
Since seeing you I only had one relapse in pain. You described this as a revisiting of the trauma as a way to come to terms with it. After that episode, I have not had pain at all! It usually comes back during the transitional seasons (fall/spring) but I have now been through almost three of those periods with no pain. This is miraculous! I now can run, stretch, jump, do yoga, cycle, everything I never did growing up because of always being bogged down by pain. So thank you for giving me back ownership over my own body.
Secondly, I have learned the difference between being open and closed. Being rigid and free flowing. Since moving to Vermont I’ve had periods of struggling with anxiety (transitions are always hard for me), and have found myself closing up again, even clenching down physically on my left side where my hip pain was, and feeling that defensive position taking hold. But the greatest thing I learned from the Network Care is what we talked about in SRI treatments. Being accepting of the good and the bad in life, the joys and the struggles, and as you say “they’re all part of me!” Reminding myself of this allows me to do away with the fear of becoming closed off again. I know that life has ups and downs, and sometimes I will feel more defensive and at times I will feel more open, but that’s ok and I’m ok.
Anyway, thank you so much again for everything you’ve done. I feel so unbelievably blessed to have come across your practice! I actually miss coming to your office the most of anything back home. It was such a peaceful place for me. I hope you are well and I wish you nothing but happiness.
Liana Van de Water